All photo's are my own except for the top left which is by the lovely @Sykereasy on Instagram.
This is going to be a rambling post so I suggest you get yourself a nice cuppa and a cosy little reading spot. I'm making an effort to blog more this year and also to write more on a personal level as opposed to ode's to my new lipstick. Which don't get me wrong, you'll still get some of those kind's of post's, I think my love of pretty thing's is just an integral part of my personality now but I want to take this blog in a different direction and share thing's that are important to me.
2016 was a strange year, I'm sure I'm not the only one who feels this way, In some ways everything is the same but in others' it feels like so much has happened and I fell that this time next year the world may have changed a lot more than we can imagine. On a personal level I'm in a completely different place than I was this time last year, I mean I'm literally living in a different country but also in the way I feel about certain things and about myself. I've also been thinking about what could have caused this change in my mindset and I realised that this past year has taught me a lot.
1. Learning a new language AFTER you get to a new country is hard. Really hard. Ten years ago when I was choosing my options for my GCSE's I uttered words along the lines off "I'm not going to take French because I'm never going to need it, it's not like I'm ever going to be moving to France." Hindsight is a powerful thing and in hindsight, I was a little bit of an idiot. So as I sit every night, google translating new words and phrases that I will not remember the next day, I try not to be too hard on myself though because while I regret not taking French I used that space to take Dance classes instead and without that I would not be here in the first place, so every cloud really does have it's silver lining.
2. I don't actually need anywhere near as much 'Stuff' as I thought. I'll be honest I like 'stuff' and I think that it's universally acknowledged that 'stuff'' roughly translates to 'shit I don't need but it was really pretty so I bought it anyway.' So when I realised that all I could bring with me to France was as much as I could get on and off the Eurostar i.e not that much at all, I did have a slight (massive) issue. It was enlightening though, to sit and list all the things I actually needed as opposed to the things I just wanted and it turns out I can survive out of one suitcase and a bag pretty well, which is something I never thought I'd say.
3. I need to listen to my Body more. This is something that many a good teacher has said to me but instead of listening to their wise advice, I'd got it into my head that the only way to be successful and get to where I want to be is to never stop working and pushing myself. Which is still true but I also realised that it's necessary for both my mental and physical health to rest and look after myself because when I don't it all hits me when I really don't have time for it. I still haven't found the right balance and I'm so rubbish at sleeping it's ridiculous but hopefully over the next year I'll be able to figure it out and not get ill at the most inconvenient times.
4. Looking good isn't everything. This is something it's taken me a long time to figure out and I'm still getting there. Don't get me wrong I still love doing my makeup, wearing nice clothes and I always feel better when I've been working out etc and we all have our days where we feel like a hot mess. However my attitude towards things like going makeup free, bad skin days and comparing myself to other people has changed completely over the past few months. I don't actually know how or when it happened but i'm more comfortable with how I look than I ever have been and honestly nothing's changed on the outside. In fact I'm writing this sat in a massive hoodie with my hair in a pineapple, bad skin and a lovely coldsore on my face, attractive, no? However instead of obsessing over it and piling on the makeup as I would a few years a go i'm just resting and letting my body do it's thing to get better, because a spot really is just a spot and how I wish I could go back and tell seventeen year old me how it'll be one day.
5. The People who support you are more important than the one's who don't. I'm extremely lucky to have some wonderful people in my life, I have an amazing boyfriend who's stuck by me as I swan off to another country, the best mum a girl could ask for (even if she did forget to bring me fruit and nut when she visited,) a wonderful family and great friends that are always there when I need them or who have the same mindset so that when we do catch up it's like we've never even been apart. However for the majority of my life I've spent a lot of time worrying about or trying to please people who don't have my best interest's at heart and I'm done with that. I don't wish anybody any ill feelings but at the end of the day I don't need them to be happy and they don't need me so it's a bit silly to always worry about their opinion's. Some of those people were in my life for far too long but now I'm happy to have the people who want to be here and love me for me, even though they know that I can't show them any love until I've had coffee.
Moving on, I know some people are very against resolutions but personally I think that anything that encourages people to make positive changes and make themselves happier isn't a bad thing with the world the way it is. Some of these are purposefully vague because sometimes life happens and I don't have a clue where i'll be or what I'll be doing by the end of the year and that is sometimes terrifying but that's the beauty of it.
1. Save money.
2. Sleep more.
3. Do my best to learn French.
4. Read More.
5. Actually take up Yoga/Pilates
6. Make an effort to wear the dresses/skirts I buy instead of jeans every day.
7. Invest in great skincare.
8. Try and get at least one post up on here a week.
9. Explore Paris more and take advantage of being so close to such a lovely city.
10. Enjoy where life is taking me and don't stress about the little things.
I'd love to hear if you've had any big realisations this year if you have any goals for 2017, hope you all have a wonderful year!
Love Rosalie x